Election...

It was March 12,2008 when we held our election for the new EXECOM and EVP of the YFC-FEU..

First Monday night (March 10,2008) someone text us and said that in Wednesday (March 12,2008) 3-5pm at campus min hall we will be having our election we are all expecting to come if we are not busy.

But Tuesday night (March 11, 2008) again someone text us and said that only the Core, Execom's and the officers are the required to attend in that election and the rest will be inform if they are also required for some reason's that I don't even know. In that day after that person text us I never expect that I can be a part of that election. After a few hours I received a text message from my TATAY GEH and he said that I am one of those who will be needing and who will be part of the election. In my case because I am a newly born YFC-FEU I was so shocked because I don't even know what are those position that will be needing in YFC-FEU, I know what they call it but the true meaning of that position is the things I don't know. After that i feel so happy because even I am only new in YFC I can still be part of YFC-FEU election.

Wednesday afternoon (March 12,2008) 2pm when I arrived in FEU the first person I saw was Kuya LEVEN, I ask him if he has a class and then he said none and I ask him where she will go he said that in the office of our Mami Emma I ask him again if I can come he said yes. After we went to the office of our Mami Emma we go straight to CM hall the place where will be having the election in that day. We are the first person who came in, not only who came in we are also the person's who ask to the lady Guard that is taking care of that place if she can open the CM hall and the lady GUARD knows it if we said that we are from YFC. After we came in both (Kuya LEVEN and ME) I decided to go out of CM hall and go to freedom park where my TATAY GEH stay with ATE WIL. After a few minutes we both came in, at the CM hall and wait for the speaker and for the other's to arrive that are also invited in the election.

March 12, 2008 pass 4pm when we start to listen in the speaker (Kuya Ace of YFC-UE). In his talk he explains all the position and all the things that EXECOM and EVP should do and follow. After his talk he lead us in to a prayer for us to vote in GOD's plan and he said that we need to continue praying while writing the names of the people we want to be in that position. While praying and before writing the names in the paper I have I went to CHAPEL of course by myself and there I pray hard and ask GOD who he wants me to vote for EXECOM's and for EVP. After few minutes of praying and voting Dadi Gino, Nanay KooKoo and Kuya Ace was the person's who count the vote's. After they know the results all the leaders went out to pray I think and talk for a while. 6pm pass when they came in again and bring all the results for the new EXECOM's and EVP. Dadi Gino was the one who will be announcing the new people who was elected in such positions.

When Dadi Gino start to announce I feel excited for those people who will be elected and who will be our next leaders. First dadi Gino announce the SPECIAL PROJECT position when he tries to look for them they are both not present MYRTLE went home and JUSTIN fix his Statistic subject. Still we know in their presence that they will be a good leaders. Second that dadi Gino announced was the DOCU position he said "ung name nila magkasunod sa alphabet" and finally he announced tha name NESTY and MIMI. "Wew it was me I was shocked I got a position and I will be having a real partner in EXECOM wew". Third he announced was the EVANGE position and the person's get that particular position was RANIEL and ATE KAREN. Fourth was the SOC. POL position KUYA JM and ATE WIL. Second to the last he announced was the MARKETING and FINANCE and the last was the EVP of course but it take a few minutes before DADI Gino announced it he get a trophy for some commercial and most exciting moment because the EVP will be the next president of the YFC-FEU. Finally he announced the MARKETING AND FINANCE is ATE KHAYE and KUYA JV the EVP is DADI MJ.

This was the story behind the election that we held last wednesday (MARCH 12, 2008) I wasn't expecting that I could get a position as one of the EXECOM of YFC-FEU. I know it is GOD"s plan and I will do my very best to be a good EXECOM of course with my PARTNER kuya NESTY.

THE NEW EXECOM and EVP of YFC-FEU...

EVP:

* Dadi Mj

SOC. POL. :

*VP- Kuya JM

*AVP- Ate Wil

MARKETING and FINANCE:

*VP- Kuya Jv

*AVP- Ate Khaye

EVANGE:

*VP- Raniel

*AVP- Ate Karen

DOCU:

*VP- Kuya Nesty

*AVP- Me,Myself and I: MIMI

SPECIAL PROJECT:

*VP- Justin

*AVP- Myrtle



CONGRATS 2 ALL OF US NEW EXECOM AND EVP ALL 4 GOD...
GOD MADE IT..

YFC-FEU congrats 2 all of us we are all leaders!!
GODBLESS!!

JESUS rockz!!!!

*after a month I made my new post wew!!!*

DAMAGE HAS BEEN DONE...

Am I wrong to ask them, Am I wrong to be concerned to them?...

Am I a bad Friend of them...

Bakit ganun?..

Mali ba na maging concern sa kanila, mali ba na magalala sa kanila...

Mali ba na magtanong akoh kung may problema sila?..

Anong klaseng kaibigan ba koh bakit akoh ganito sa kanila...

Hindi ba koh marunong magpahalaga sa mga tao sa paligid koh..
Akala koh magiging matatag kami, akala koh kami ang magkakaintindihan sa isat-isa..
Pero bakit ngaun nasa gitna kaming tatlo ng pagkakahiwa-hiwalay.
Anong nangyayari samin, kaylangan koh sila at hindi koh sila kayang mawala sakin pero hindi koh din alam kung anong dapat kong gawin para maging maaus lahat ng toh...

Saan akoh dapat magumpisa at anong dapat kong gawin para malagpasan lahat ng toh at maibalik lahat sa dati ung pagkakaibigan namin...
I don't have any intention to hurt them pero wala eh nagawa koh ng makapagsalita ng mga masakit sa kanila bakit ganito akoh...

Lahat na lang ng tao na nagiging malapit sakin unit-unting nawawala at iniiwan akoh..May mali ba sa pakikisama koh sa kanila..Aukoh ng mawala sila sakin dahil sila nalang ung nakakaintindi sakin at sila nalang ung mga taong nasasandalan koh..

Isa lang ba tong challenge samin ni GOD para masubukan kung gano kami katatag at kung gano namin kamahal ang isat-isa...Pero bakit ganito ung challenge agad samin napakaBIGAT at hindi namin alam kung pano lulusutan dahil kahit napakaliit na butas wala akong makita..

Sobrang nasasaktan akoh sa mga nagyayari ngaun dahil unti-unti na nalalagyan ng lamat sa pagkakaibigan naming tatlo at hindi koh alam kung paano pigilan ang paglaki ng LAMAT na un..

DAMAGE HAS BEEN DONE sabi nga niya and there's no remedy within it..
Hindi koh naman sinasadya na makapagsabi ng mga words na hindi koh alam na makakasakit sa kanya pero isa lang naman ang gusto kong malaman mula sa kaniya kung anong rison at bakit siya lumalau samin, gusto koh lang naman malaman kung may nagawa ba kami, kung may problema ba siya samin o kung gusto niyang umiwas samin dahil nasasaktan kami sa bawat araw na lumilipas at nararamdaman naming lumalau siya samin, aus lang lang naman na sabihin niya sakin(samin) na busy siya maiintindihan naman namin un eh hindi naman kami mahirap umintindi. That's all I wanna hir..

That's why I ask her why did she do that to us, bakit parang lumalau siya samin pero nung sinabi koh un I don't have any intention na saktan siya sa mga words na nasabi koh..
Pero huli na nga lahat wala na kong magagawa nangyari na lahat ng nangyari eh..


The last words I hear from her...

"Im moving away not becoz I want to"
"Im maintaning my distance not becoz I dont want to be near u"
"Im putting up a wall not becoz u did something wrong"
"Im moving away not becoz i hate u, but to avoid more misunderstandings."
"Ayokong masaktan koh pa kau lalo. kaya ok na ganito palang umalis na koh mahal koh kayong dalawa"


Sobrang nasaktan akoh nung sinabi niya samin yan, mas patuloy akong masasaktan at hindi magiging ok kung lalau siya samin..Kaya kong tanggapin lahat ng sakit na pagdadaanan naming tatlo dahil part un ng pagiging magkakaibigan namin..That's a challenge for us..

Pero hindi koh kayang tangapin lahat ng sakit na idudulot ng paglayo niya samin coz everyday na maiisip koh na iniwan niya na kami at tuluyan na siyang lalau samin patuloy akong masasaktan at sisisihin ang sarili koh sa mga nangyayari...

Mahal koh sila hindi lang bilang isang kaibigan kundi bilang ate koh, kapatid koh...
Ayoko masira ng biglaan at mawala lahat ng pinagsamahan namin..


"I thought every promise that we sed will not be broken.."
"I thought we will never leave each other's side.."
"But what now, what's going on to our friendship"..
"It's killin me more and more..."

STRUGGLES bwahahah!!!

Back 2 be a BLOGGER bwahahah!!

Its been a long tym since i post my last BLOG because my mind is still empty and dunno wat 2 post hir but I should try coz I miz having a new post..

I will just tell how's my life doing ryt now after my last post and what really encourage me to have a new POST again...

Hir it goes...!

My life after my last post is very CHALLENGING because GOD gave me a new STRUGGLES that really affects me(not only me but many people) but I should say that I'm still lucky coz GOD never leave me(us) and he gave me those people that can help me to realize every little thing that happens to me..

Now I should say that,that STRUGGLE is the way of GOD to teach me to be STRONG and I know that now I am...

We can't blame anyone for those TRIALS we encounter coz they doesn't even know about it...

I will just tell one of those struggle that I've been encounter up to now...

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There is a person that is close enough to me, he's like my older brother coz he treat me so nice like his younger sis..

But one day when I woke up I suddenly realize that I'm falling for HIM it was wrong I know coz in the first place he was just only treating me like his younger sister that's why I decided to end all of our communication. I don't even want to see HIM at all coz I know that he can't understand me coz I think he's so insensitive. I am right he really is very insensitive person. I don't want him to know all the reason's why I need to end all our communication but he tried to ask me again and again still I didn't tell HIM but I know and I already feel that he's getting an idea.

Why did I say so..?

Because one time he txted me and he said one phrase connected to what I really feel and that really force me to get mad at HIM coz that phrase is not good to hear....(grrr...) After he said that I decided not to txt HIM anymore even I am still confused if I can do it and finally I did..

I just talk to GOD about it and ask a little sign if the thing I did is right or wrong. If the sign happen in that week I'm wrong but if it isn't happen I'm right hahahha!!! Suddenly when I discern for it GOD gave me a sign that tells me I'm definitely wrong but still I continue to pray about it and it gave me a big realization hahahah!!!...

REALIZATION:

Not everyone can understand what u really feel and there are still people pretending they don't know what you're trying to say even they already know...hahahahha!!(SPONGEBOB)

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Now I'm done with those struggles and i will just laugh if GOD will give me anoder challenge because laughing is the best medicine haha...

I don't want to be EMO again coz many people sees me how I cried when GOD is giving me STRUGGLES and SATAN that time is laughing..

I'm strong enough to face all those TRIALS that GOD has given me and PPG is there to cheer me up plus YFC my second true family...

YFC for me is the source of my strength they made me strong enough to face all the people trying to pull me down because YFC pulls me up.. GOD really rockz!!!

SATAN will never see me crying because of those TRIALS,STRUGGLESand for those hu's trying to hurt me coz I'm back, Mimi's back the strong person I was before hahahaha!!!(MALDITA!!)

What's happen'n to me...

I thought i am now fixed!!

But I realize I am not!!

I am definitely not FIXED!!

Nor Healed!!

I thought I am strong enough to face all my BURDENS
and to heal my owns PAINS..
How can I help other people if I know deep in me that I can't help myself..
GOD is waiting outside of my heart he's knocking on me but there's a wall between us i don't know how to remove it. Don't know what's going on with my own life. Don't know who am I..
Every piece of me are BROKEN definitely hard to fixed.
How can I start fixing all those pieces, don't know where to start.
Don't know how to remove the wall between me and my GOD.
I know GOD is still waiting outside of me.
He's hungry, sick, thirsty yet he's still waiting for me to remove the wall, open the door to my heart and mind.

I know GOD is the only one that can help me to fixed my self.

But there's hindrances why GOD can't enter my heart, my mind and all of me.
I really can't find those hindrances between me and my GOD.

---That's what I am last nyt-----

I wan't to be happy without pretending.

I wan't to be strong enough to face all those pains in me.

I wan't to get out of this problem for me to let go of myself.

I wan't GOD to enter my life, my heart and my mind.

I wan't to fixed myself.

I wan't GOD to use me.

I wan't to serve GOD without hesitation.

---This is all i want---

Last nyt sumone hit me at my back and say "Don't let Satan enter to ur heart, Don't show to him that your weak".

And suddenly I realize he's right and I wake up to the reality that I need to remove all the walls and hindrances between me and my GOD and i will let GOD enter my life, my heart and my mind.

I cried so hard because I'm guilty coz GOD get sick, hungry and thirsty because he's waiting for me to remove the wall and open the door to my heart.

I realize that he really love's me and he's willing to wait for me to get only his hand.

But still don't know how to start to get his hand even though i realize that I need HIM...

Don't know where to start my new life with.

Don't know how to fixed myself..

All I wan't is to be happy without pretending and accept GOD with all of me..

Becoz I know he's the only one I need.

---This is Who am I ryt now---

I am now FIXED!!

I do have alot's of burden inside of me..

Cguro nga tama ung naging mess. sakin ni GOD...

I have 2 let go of it...
Ask some help from other people that u know can help u..

Sobrang naging aus akoh ngaung araw na toh..

Muli akong pinaiyak ni GOD dahil niyakap niya koh during our 1ST WORXP of the year, pinaiyak niya din akoh dahil pinaramdam niya na di akoh nagiisa dahil madaming taong naniniwala, nagmamahal at sumusoporta sakin.

Ang sarap ng feeling na marefresh lahat sa utak at puso moh ung mga bagay na unti unting nawawala sau dahil sa mga PAINS, BURDENS and BITTERNESS inside of u.

Muling ipinaramdam sakin ni GOD na nanjan lang siya hinihintay akoh na kunin ang mga kamay niya at muli niya akong itatayo sa pagkakadapa koh dahil nagpapadala akoh sa mga bagay na humahatak sakin pababa.

Super sarap ng pakiramdam na nilinis at inauz ni GOD lahat ng sakit sa puso koh meron paring mga lamat ang natitira pero alam koh TIME CAN HEAL. Ang daming taong mas higit pa ang PAINS sa loob nila pro akoh mga problema koh ngaun alam koh wala pa un pero bakit akoh nagpapadala. Hindi koh kaylangan maging mahina dahil alam koh na nanjan ang mga taong nagmamahal at patuloy akong susuportahan sa lahat at gagabayan sa lahat katulad ng mga ka YFC koh. Sobrang minahal koh sila at hindi koh kayang mawala sila sakin dahil sila lang nagbibigay ng lakas ng loob sakin pero alam koh GOD HAS A BETTER PLAN FOR MY LIFE at unti unti silang kukunin sakin hanggang matutunan kong magisa at tumayo sa lahat ng mga problema koh pero sana hanggat wala pa iyon hindi sila mawala sa tabi koh dahil sila lang ang mga taong nakakatulong at nakakagabay sakin.

Ano nga bang PURPOSE koh bilang isang YFC. Siguro kinuha akoh ni GOD dahil alam niya na kaya koh lahat lagpasan ang BURDENS koh at alam niya na kaya kong magpagamit sa kanya para ikalat ang pangalan niya. Isa na nga siguro un sa mga PURPOSE koh dito pero kung malalaman koh lang lahat alam koh madami pa akong dapat matutunan at lagpasan para malaman at makuha ang tunay na halaga koh bilang isang TAO at bilang isa sa mga magpapakalat ng pangalan ni KRISTO sa mga taong hindi naniniwala sa kaniya.

Alam koh ngaun pagkatapos ng WORXP namin kanina muli nanaman akong magiging maauz hindi man TOTALLY ok pero alam koh nabawasan lahat ng PAINS na dinadala koh.

GOD FIXED ME..

GOD FIXED MY BROKEN HEART..

GOD PUT AWAY ALL MY BURDENS...