I don't know how to get rid of this DAMN feeling!
I don't know how to start to forget about this kind of feeling!
I am IN LOVE but at the wrong person!
Way back years, before this day came!
I was once a little sister to someone that I treat like my older brother!
Suddenly something happen that changes my feelings for HIM!
I decided to let go of that feelings!
I go far from HIM!
After years we get back into each others arms as BROTHERS and SISTERS again!
I thought everything I felt for him way back years ago was already disappear!
But when we reconcile together with common friends I slowly realize something!
My feelings is still there and it gets so deeply that I can't easily let go of HIM!
We both need each others company because of something that we both understand!
It came to a point that we realize we LOVE each other!
We are saying I LOVE YOU to each other!
He says HE WILL NEVER LET GO OF ME!
He says HE WILL TAKE CARE OF ME!
He says HE WILL NOT HURT ME!
He says HE WILL NOT GO ANYWHERE EXCEPT ON MY SIDE ONLY!
He says HE LOVES ME!
BUT
Why is he like that?
Why is he leaving me now?
Why is he hurting me now?
Why? I don't understand!
I don't know how to let go!
I don't know what to do?
I don't know where to start?
I don't know everything!
but LOVING HIM is the only thing I KNOW!
I can't stop crying!
I can't stop thinking of HIM!
I can't stop LOVING HIM!
I ask myself *DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG TO HIM?*
I ask myself *DID I HURT HIM?*
I ask myself *IS THERE SOMETHING I CAN DO FOR HIM?*
Why this things happening to us?
I don't want HIM to go far from me!
But I need to accept the fact that HE DOESN'T LOVE ME!
And He will never do love me!
I don't know how to end this feeling!
I can do anything just for him!
I can! but I can't!
August 17, 2010 4:30Am
I created a poem that describe how I feel . . .
I hope this is only a dream that tomorrow when I wake up everything will be forgotten!
I hope every pain will be gone tomorrow when I wake up!
I LOVE YOU! :'(